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God gives me courage, not fear.
Eight years battling the beast called anxiety will teach you a thing or two. Eight years and a mixed bag of panic attacks, anxiety, depression, ups & downs, love & loss, illness, health, transitions, and being my own worst enemy later, I have become strong. I have learned more than I could ever have imagined. I am starting to accept myself. Here is what I have learned. What I am still struggling with. And most importantly, the hope I have to share with those who cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel.
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I’m taking steps backwards after making so much positive progress and getting so much better with anxiety. I’ve had anxiety for almost nine years now, and I have been on medication for a good part of those last eight or nine years. I am still on meds and plan to be for awhile, but I definitely don’t want to be on all of the medication that I am on right now for life. No doubt, these medications have helped me and I am grateful for it. I have also made A TON of progress on my own. But long term, some of the medications are not the best for you, I don’t want any health issues someday because of my medications that I was taking to feel better. So while I am not off my meds, nor do I plan to get off all of them anytime soon, I am decreasing the ones that should be decreased. I was definitely upset when I figured out that despite my progress, some of my meds were doing a lot of work for me, and I am having pretty bad anxiety again, especially at night because of decreasing my night meds. This post really won’t help anyone, and nobody will read it. But it is for me, because I need to get this out instead of letting it stay inside. It’s just hard to go back to a difficult place when you’ve worked so hard to get out of it, but I know that I can do this. Anxiety is something I will always have to live with, and one day I hope to be completely off of my meds. It is going to take a lot of work, going back to counseling, doing a lot of things, but I need to do this. I can do this.
Please pray.
My dear friend just posted a Facebook status that could either be a joke or a serious sign that he’s not okay. Someone asked him if he was okay, and he said, “I’m not all right.” So please pray. I love this kid to death and I want him to be okay. Thanks <3
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The Definition of Courage: Bella Rodriguez-Torres
PLEASE WATCH BELLA’S STORY AND SHARE! A MIRACLE IS NEEDED! THIS LITTLE GIRL DESERVES A LONG, HAPPY, AND WONDERFUL LIFE!!
This short documentary was made by Bella’s cousin. Bella has been fighting cancer since she was four and a half years old. She has fought through Rhabdomyosarcoma (which for a time, paralyzed her), a brain tumor, and a tumor found in her ovaries. Just last week, after having pain in her belly for seven days, scans revealed the worst, 3-4 new small tumors in her stomach. They are still waiting for more detailed results, and they will know more information soon. Doctors are unsure of the exact amount of new tumors, how progressed they are, and exactly what steps they will need to take. Bella will most likely start chemotherapy again very soon.
Childhood cancer came into my own life when my little brother was diagnosed with a very rare and aggressive form of cancer called Synovial Sarcoma on August 31, 2010. No person should ever have to get cancer, and that is especially true when that person is just a child. Please share Bella’s story. Pray for Bella and her family. If you do not feel comfortable with prayers, please keep Bella in your thoughts and send positive thoughts and love her way! This little girl should be enjoying her childhood cancer free, not fighting for her life. PRAY THAT BELLA IS HEALED OF ALL CANCER AND CAN LIFE A HAPPY, HEALTHY, CANCER FREE LIFE!! EVERY LITTLE PRAYER AND POSITIVE THOUGHT COUNTS!! THANK YOU AND GOD BLESS!
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Big night tonight. Premiere party for the new web series, Temporary Setbacks, that I filmed two episodes of back in late August. Then a party for my friend’s birthday after that. Woke up feeling miserable today, hoping this passes.. not a good time to be sick.
It’s funny to look back on old posts, even ones that aren’t that old, and to realize how fast things have changed, how fast things are always changing. Glad to say at least I am always growing as a person. I may not have a lot figured out still, but I do know who I am and what I stand for, and I have a pretty good idea of where I’d like to try and go in this life. Remember to take things one day at a time. Learn from the past. Live in the present. Plan for the future.
